years.

just had a talk with ica, on how happy we were when we were so young, when we had close to nothing, but we felt content somehow. i'm feeling nostalgic right now. plus i'm high on sugar and i just can't sleep.

six years passed in a blink of an eye. my former roommate is now residing in banjarmasin. she just emailed me yesterday on how life is very different there, and how she missed home much. i'll reply her email after this, i promised her after all.

six years ago, who would have known that we will end up like this, when our worries back then feel very trivial now. when our problems back then feel very easy to handle now. when all the little things bugging us back then feel very small now.

it's kinda strange to know that six years ago this place felt foreign to me, though i consider this place as home right now. and what's weirder is the fact that i'm accepting it now. that the city life fits me better than the serenity my hometown offers.

what's more amazing is that i've met so many people in the span of six years. like, so many that my 16 year-old self will deem it impossible. and i can talk with them. i can converse with strangers now.

these past 6 years felt surreal somehow. but i'm grateful for it. really. thank you, all of you. :)

ohisashiburi desu.

so last year i said that i will update more, but i didn't.
this year though, there are so many things to write, but i don't know where to start. maybe i'll post something based on time sequence, but nothing is decided yet. i'll write and post something though.
i will.

#kameramata

hallo! :D

well, i know that i've been slacking off too much on this. been away and wandering around multiply (which recently shut down its blog and note features *le sigh*), wordpress, 750words, and (mostly) twitter for these past 2 years. so, yes, i still write, but mostly only random things on scattered places. hehehe.

i know that it's impetuous, but since yesterday i've been thinking of reinstating this blog again, and maybe re-post things i've posted else where here. keeping things in a place and re-live-ing this blog again. *praying that this will really happen in the future*

and as a celebration of this, i decided to put on a short random writing that i've been searching for a while from my twitter, dated back to July 5th, 2010:

andai ada kamera serupa mata manusia. #kameramata
yang sempurna. memandang dunia tanpa batas dg bebas. #kameramata
merekam semua adegan hidup tanpa kecuali. tanpa perlu kendali. #kameramata
menyimpan segala memori apa adanya. memotret tanpa perlu menipu. #kameramata

till then, then. :)

*i don't know why, but i kinda like the #kameramata hashtag that i used back then. hehehe*

mother's birthday

For millions of things you've done for me.
For every thing you've shared with me.
For every story you've told me.
For every places you've showed me.
For every thing.
For you.
Thank you. :)

I'm glad that you are my mother. I really do.

Happy birthday Mama...
Te amo... :')

Gift

The greatest gift of all is... Life.

So, thank you God, and everyone! :)

father's birthday

It’s weird that you never come to me. Not even once after these 14 years. But you come to others.
It’s weird that I didn’t see you inside brother. Well, maybe not a complete you.
It’s true that I keep you close. I see you every day in my wallet. I see you sometimes when I’m home. I see the place people put you there after your life.
It’s true that I write and talk nonsense after all.
I just desperately miss you.
(4:24 pm May 7th, 2011)

Happy birthday Papa...
Te extrano muchissimo... Lo siento... :')

sabit

Jadikan sabit itu pengingatku akan kembalimu.
Lengkungnya nan indah dan sepi.
Garisnya yang tegas tapi sunyi.

Jadikan sabit itu pengingatku padamu.
Kokohnya yang sendiri tanpa kawan.
Sinarnya yang mengalah pada bintang-bintang.

Biarkan sabit itu menjadi diriku.
Mengisi kelam kelam yang berjelaga,
Menerangi dengan cercah sekuat tenaga.

Jangan biarkan aku jadi purnama lagi.
Bulat penuh nan angkuh.
Sombong sangat walau taksempurna.

Biarkan purnama hilang dari diriku.
Jadikan aku gelap pekat legam laksana arang.
Agar bintang-bintang dapat menari dengan riang.

Makan aku malam.
Telan penuh takbersisa.
Aku ingin hilang.


17-05-2010 6:36 pm
Sejalan pulang.